Waiting...
almost 19. i have probably 70 ahead in my life. wait. its all that i am capable to do now. wait.
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Being Me.
Its hard. You want to please people but sometimes, maybe most times, you'd go around unnoticed. And all you do is just suck it in. People say shit things, do shit things to me, smile. Smile, I've got nothing to lose. SMILE. That's how I get through my days. Don't do shit to others. Just smile. It gives me a little bit of hope. It always does. Makes me think that eventually, I'll be alright. Forgive. That's right. And sometimes, forget. I'm like a plastic bag with holes. You fill me with water and at the same time, I'm getting rid of them as well. Some people don't do that. They don't have holes. Once it's full, they'll just spill out everything. I'm never full. But if things keep coming to me very fast, I just might. I hope that won't happen though. Only my best friends, old friends know who I really am. I ain't so tough, so rugged. Not really. I ain't those with certain people. I am in fact gentle, very loving. (: Its b...
Mind Fucked
Fuck this shit. Poly life.. Is like... DAMN! What the fuck happened to me? Influential friends. DAMN IT! In secondary school, I've never had to hide myself so much. Why now? Bitch, it ain't you. Let go of all the things screwing your mind man! Pleasing a bunch of people is tough now. Man, I don't have to actually TRY to please people in secondary school.. Well, at least people from my clique. It's insane how things change for me. FUCKING INSANE. The things I do which makes my mind fucked. Now I'm wearing things I swear to myself that I'll never wear. Do things because of people. My mind is totally screwed. I shouldn't blame my friends for this. Should blame myself for actually listening. FUCK ME!
Kaymond
He is a fucking pain in the ass to be around with! He's one hell of a nut job!! Haha! But I love him nevertheless. I am most vulgar with him and him with me too. I am most me with him I think. The most me. The one who doesn't care what she wears as long as it is presentable to where I'm going or what event I am attending. The one who kick asses every time! The one who doesn't care to be recognized. The one who will smack faces of girls staring at me. Anyway, I love him too damn much to ever forget he is EVERY FUCKING WORTH A FRIEND! (:
What's the point?
What's the point of being alive if you don't at least try to do something remarkable? So, in my pocket list, I added: Jumping off a cliff! (:
My Passion, My Love
performing arts. my passion, my love. though i'm still an amatuer in playing the trumpet, i still love playing it. and i will try my best to get every note right. SPARKSWINDS. That's the name of my current band. its an alumni band of three schools. yhcb, rvcb and pjsb. it is of the most important to me now. the most probably last concert that the band might do. i want this concert to be a damn good one, last concert or not. 13 practices till the 13 january. i ain't gonna fuck this up. only 13 practices to go. ain't a lot.
