SuHaiDaH ~~

I can't help but feel like I owe people. Whenever people ask me for favours I just tell them okay because I feel like I owe them at least them. But I can't help to feel like if I have something I need to ask from them, they'll simply say no. Even if I put the needs of others before my own. Well, they don't know that. They don't know what I've sacrificed to help them. They don't know how much they mean to me. They don't know I've suffered (a little) just so I could help them. To them, I help them because they think it won't backfire on me. So they could say no if I ask them for help. Which is why I don't ask for help. Personal help. Money. I don't have lots of money. I earned to save for school. I've lost so much and one 1 person knows about this. I've lost so much I feel miserable. My parents are helping me so much but I feel like I couldn't ever repay them back. But whenever my friends ask me for help on this, I just help...

HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS! It's 2016!! 2015 have past and damn am I glad it is. Although I couldn't run away from the unsolved problems I had then, I pray it will be resolved soon.. So on another note, I have a feeling that 2016 will be a good year. Spent NYE almost perfectly with PG (almost because Bry popped the champagne 5 seconds earlier before midnight). As long as we're together, that year will be awesome! Well, 2015 ain't that bad. It's just the year I turned 21. And I got an offer to go study overseas! And I got my Class 3 license! And yeah, that is basically it for 2015 for me I guess. Hmm, the rest are just downfall. For instance:- 1. I got scolded many times about work. 2. My company is now known worldwide and not because of good things. 3. No 2 made things worst for the company. 4. I rented a car and crashed it. Now my family is $10k down. (WORST DOWNFALL EVER) 5. Made the MOST STUPID AND WORST decision ever by saying yes to someone who asked me to...

Be happy. Be happy for everyone. Even if it's for the person you don't know or don't like. Doesn't matter. But especially, be happy for the people you love. No matter how jealous you are of them. Just be happy. Being happy for someone doesn't just make you feel better, it'll motivate you to do better. Yes, you might feel sad about yourself because you're not getting what the other person has but at the least, you're kinda happy that they are happy. Be happy for others. Don't let other people's success or happiness bring you down because you don't have a fucking clue what shitty messed up things they had to go through to be where they are, be what they are now. It's nice to be happy for others. Trust me. Put a smile on their faces as well as yours. Though you know inside you're jealous as fuck but you know that you are hapy for them as well, no matter who they are. Keep smiling, Suhaidah

I absolutely don't mind people ranting their work / personal problems to me. I don't. After a while, it gets too personal and they say stuff like "I'm not good enough" "I'm such a failure" "I feel so demotivated" "I feel so useless". I just don't know what to reply to them. I feel like slapping their fucking faces so hard that my hand mark on their face stays for a week. All i can say to them is "you're doing fine" "You're new, once you got the hang of things, it'll be alright" What do you want me to say? So different people handle things differently. For me, I just keep quiet. If I blow up, only I know. Yes, I have best friends. But I don't wanna bother them with silly crap in my head. I know that is what best friends are for. But see, they tell me their problems. And I think, "If I were to tell my problems out to them, it'll just pile on them more." That's why I don...

Saying, "I love myself" is always easy. You're telling yourself that's you're fine just the way you are.  Accepting that fact though, that's tough. No doubt some people have actually legitimately love themselves but the most of us in the world, we just say that we love ourselves.  But do we? I know I have this problem. I keep telling myself, telling people that I love me. And God knows how much I do love myself. Like seriously, only God knows. I know to some extent I do, but how much? That, I don't. Accepting other people is easier than accepting ourselves. Because we have high standards of ourselves and we want to achieve them. If we can't, that is when self denial starts. We tell ourselves it is enough what God has given us. But we always want more. We want to be prettier, cuter, richer. We look at the magazines, the ads, the movies, TV shows. We see the actors and models and we want to be like them. Inspire to be like them. Based on...

It's 2015!!!!! It is finally 2015 and I am so looking forward to incredible things that are going to happen! 2014 was a blessed year for me! These are a few things why:- 1. I graduated from Singapore Maritime Academy, Singapore Polytechnic with a Diploma in Maritime Business 2. I got a job before I officially graduated 3. I got confirmed with a slight increment in my pay! 4. I learnt a lot of new things (work, personally) 5. I turned 20! Being that I am no longer a teenager and I have a full-time job now, apparently, I still do not know what to do with my life still. All I know is that I am going to continue my studies in 2017 and that is still a long way to go.. kinda. Even with the job that I have now, I still do not know what to pursue in this HUGE industry, Maritime.  So this year, 2015, I am aiming to list down a few things that I might be interested in, in the near future. I won't decide what I am going to do now as I am afraid that I might regr...

So somebody posted this on facebook with a reponse "What are we waiting for then?" First thing first. All of the items listed above, EVERYONE in this world buys them. EVERYONE! You wanna get 7 billion people to boycott them? Really? Let's not talk about the whole world right now. Just Muslims. You can't possibly get the whole Muslim society to boycott the Israelis. YOU CAN'T!  Yes, we can try to not buy all these products but somewhere along the way, YOU WILL BUY IT! There's no denying in that.  I am a Muslim myself and I'm not saying that I am supporting Israel because what if the only food you have around you is McDonald's? What if the only coffee you can ever buy is Starbucks and Nestle? You not going to buy them and starve? You got to be realistic. There is approximately 1.6 billion Muslims around the world. You CANNOT expect this number to boycott them because the rest of the 5.4 billion people are going to keep buying them. And what ...