Alone...

Planning to go to the doctor tomorrow. gonna do something about my right thumb and index finger finally. there's like a skin infection there. I don't know what's it called but yeah.. if you put too much pressure or whatever, it stings a little. and i will go to the doctor tomorrow to get it fixed. the thing is, i'm just afraid it hurts and i don't have anyone there to hold on to. my dad is working, my bro is schooling. my mum has to get my sister ready for school. my friends.. well, some are working, some are sleeping. some are schooling. the fact is, i really wanna ask this guy out to accompany me. but i'm afraid. don't know whether he likes me or not. i mean, will there be anyone who will like me? anyway yeah, kinda envious of my friends, they have like somebody there to accompany them. but i don't. even abbie has someone to accompany him. i think. should be la. but i don't. sigh...

i'm just afraid that it'll hurt bad and no ine is there to console me or something.. omg.. sian. i he stays nearby, i wouldn't mind asking him.. but he lives quite a distance. so asking him is like shooting myself... damn..

anyway, i've decided to go alone then.. its okay. so yeah. (:

love,
Suhaidah

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