SuHaiDaH ~~

sooooo, school has been 2 weeks now. having great friends around. haha. cool stuff. now, i know now i suck at accounting. jeesh. regrets? grr. no idea. great, i'm like totally lost la in class. have no idea where the teachers are headed to in the slides. haha. totally messed up. hahaa. when will my hair grow longer and when will i start waking up 2 hours before going out to school to do my hair and stuff? will i ever learn to be MORE MORE FEMININE? what will my other friends think if the see the change in me? nah, think i'll stick to MY status quo. i'll stick to MY principles. the first impression i gave to my newly found friends were that i was naive and the type that will listen in during class.. haha.. well, they got me TOTALLY UPSIDE DOWN!! haha.. i am totally opposite of that. jeesh. im strong, tough and kinda rebellious at times. they should see me when i was in secondary school.. hahah

GREAT!! school is starting tomorrow. -.- am i ready for it? could i handle the stress and struggles and whatnot? gosh, Allah, help me and guide me through these processes of Polytechnic? i hope i can pull these through. i wanna get a scholarship go overseas study. so got subsidy la duh.. if i didn't get a scholarship, i can't get the subsidy i would get and it'll cost me over what? $10,000. how can i dig up that amount of money within a year? oh god. i want to get a scholarship. please lighten my burden of whatever it is that is going to jump on me these 3 years and help me pave my way to success. AMIN!

why do you keep popping up in my head everytime i have something important to do? why don't you just appear in my dreams where it's all lies there? well, from that quote, i'm sure all that whoever is reading this blog think i'm some weird girl but hey, if you know this person, you would never be wanting to fall for the person. haha. well, as far as school comes, everythings alright. new great friends, same old friends and new old friends. haha. tomorrow is going to be a fucking day where i need to go to mendaki to sign a form. i have no idea what shit form they are talking about but screw it. i don't fucking care. as long as i can get my fucking subsidy, it's all fine. and somehow important. well, more important things i need to deal with, what if i can't control my money? what if i spend it like as if it has no limit? all this fucking WHAT IFs are landing on me. i need to get new clothes and a new running shoe. adizero. OMG! is so damn pretty la. haha. anyw

well, this sucks. especially when you and your friend have been looking forward to studying together even though its a coincidence. gosh, me and Nab not in same class and my class only got like 20 students and there's only 5 malays in the class. -.- that sucks. i hope they are not like mats or minahs or nerdies.. -.- okay, i MUST get along with them well, coz as it is, we are going to be in the same class for a years at least. ): why didn't they put me in the same class as Nab? well, never too late to meet new friends hey. haha. anyway, school is starting tomorrow. really excited. haha. probably meeting Nab before we separate ways to our classes. haha

11 CONSECUTIVE GOLD AWARDS! Singapore's record siaaaa!! haha. OMG! I can't tell you how proud I am of my juniors who played for the SYF this year! (: You guys played well, did great for the past 3 months. so proud! (: I can't give a word on how DAMN AWESOME I'm feeling right now. firestorm indeed is not an easy piece to play but well, you guys totally pull that through! GREAT JOB YOU GUYS!! (: And Shuqun Secondary School, AWESOME JOB! Festival Variations is totally a killer piece for trumpets and horns and these two sections are the stars of the piece. SALUTE AHHH!!! you guys totally rock that piece!!! (: haha! AWESOME!! to all SYF participants! GREAT JOB MAN!!! and ALL THE BEST! (:

tomorrow is the Band's SYF day and i don't have a ticket. nevermind. maybe i'll just wait outside. it's only 15 minutes. i would't want to watch the whole thing coz i have to go to SP to collect my printer. jeesh. so troublesome. haix. anyway, i would like to wish the whole band all the best and i know you guys don't need any luck coz i know you guys will do your best tomorrow and sustain the band's achievement of getting a gold award for every SYF there is. (: i know you guys can do it! rest well, and be on alert tomorrow! (: so, as for me, im going to go with the band tomorrow so i have to reach the school early also. that means i need to reach Yuhua by 5.30! great. more sleep for me tonight. but i don't think there's a need. i'll just sleep in the bus tomorrow. today, HOT day! really! gosh, its SO DAMN HOT~! i'm literally melting. haha. 2 more wekks till school starts. (: AND KAYMOND,YOU OWE ME 5 BUCKS!!! HAHA

beginning of a new month, and school is totally starting soon. mixed feelings. scared and excited both at the same time. i lost my mum's ez-link card and i haven't reported it yet. yes, i know its important that i report it but wth. screw it. haha. too lazy to head to the train station to report though the station is only 5 minutes away from my home. gosh. school is starting soon and i have not enough clothes to wear. all my clothes are since i was sec 3. man, i really need to shop for clothes the moment my pay comes to my bank account. haha. i have a few things to buy in mind. pants, shirts, bicycle, totally new shoes. i need to lead a stylish life instead of just a simple. i need to totally get used to this keyboard on my new laptop. gosh, i need to get use to it quick.