SuHaiDaH ~~

on 18th december 2010, i've officially graduated from YHCB! ): its sad but at the same time glad as i now will enter into another chapter of my life. in anyways, im happy i've graduated and SUPER DANG FUCKING HAPPY that the march pass was on parade ground!! YEAH!! (: super lucky!! (: haha. and today is 21 december 2010, its JACKSON RATHBONE'S birthday!!! he is 26 this year.. sadly, 8 years older than me ): but i know there's totally no chance for him and me anyway so, why sober over it.. haha.. but nevertheless, HAPPY 26th BIRTHDAY JACKSON RATHBONE!!! you will always be my number 1 star!! (: haha love you to the max! (: <33

hell, benn with a flu for a month now and a cough for almost a week. ): man, when is it gonna stop? shit. being that nowadays, barely no one ever reads blogs or update them, well, what's the use of it anyway?? anyway, i just registered to ADECCO and waiting for its results so yea.. hope a get a decent job. (: yea, well, its been awhile since i saw him and well, i don't really have any thing for him already which is like a BIG BIG RELIEVE!!! (: haha. i dont wanna grow u man. i mean, i'm not ready to get into the outside world making tough decisions. i wanna stay young and live my life. im still a small kid and by being small, well, technically, everybody mistook me by being a few years younger than my real age. im getting iinto random stuffs here.. gosh. haha. i'll update soon. promise (:

i miss you lots.. im suddenly thinking of you. WHY?? why you? love? but you dont even show signs.. do you even care for me?, well, as a friend even??? hmmm.. i wonder.. only wonder.. (:

so, still ast my aunt's after 1 week+.. haha. work hasn't come to me yet and i'm DAMN bored!! my sis cut her fringe and its SOOOO UGLY!! haha. okay, so far, in less than three days, i've watched 4 1/2 hindustan movies.. haha.. INCREDIBLE!! and i nevger thought i would ever get to watch any of it again since last i watched it. which is like about 5 years.. wow.. break record or what!!! hahah!! okay, so i have to control myself to not be addicted to these type of movies and gosh!! the songs are like STUCK in my head!! haha.. probably at 8, i'll be going out to NEX mall and when all my cousins and i got back home, we'll continue again watching the hindustan movies.. haha.. omg! WTH man!!that makes it all 5 hindustan movies!! lols..

just realised that i missed november ): well, then that's too bad... haha

currently looking for a job now. haix. didn't know it was stress man!! haha. gosh. and i got my new WESTLIFE GRAVITY ALBUM. haha!! i'm so HAPPY!! lols.! omg! the new album IS damn GREAT! haha i just love it. well, actually, i love the band more!! haha. i applied for mbs and also applying rws. (: and NOW, i'm watching friends and it's DAMN funny!! (: haha

Emath paper1 is over and i'm quute confident that i can pass that paper. (: but i'm not confident whether i would like get a high mark or what uh.. Hahah. Anyway, tomorrow is emath paper2 and the feeling in me is tormenting. Haha. Like seriously, i scared uh ): so, i am like diligently studying mood these days well, obviously, its because its O Level period.. Hahs. I'm thinking its a little too late for that but everybody will then say, "its never too late to revise today." haha, well, i'm going to bed now coz i wanna get up quite early to revise abit and then take short nap about 1hr then get ready for school. haha. So yea, goodnight!!! (:

So, english is like finally over and even danial doesn't care whether i'm speaking proper english or not.. Haha.. (: Now, i'll have to worry about math coz i REALLY HAVE TO SCORE WELL!!! I don't really care and i MUST do well... Well, i dunno why i'm thinking like this but yea, i just got this feeling that i have to do well for math.. Haix.. I want to.. I've been suckish at math for the past 2 years and this week is the week to prove myself wrong. SO WRONG! So there, i need to go study now, blog tmr!! (:

Okay, so I'm like left with only 20 more days to O levels.. Gosh, I'm like terrified now mam!! I really wanna do well and like finally leave this idiotic school at last.. I dun wanna repeat anymore cox it's like just a waste of my tome being in that fucking school!!! Like seriously man!! Fuck it! Haha anyway, I'm gonna like try real hard to score for my most important exam of my life and I know it's like once in month that I'm like updating my blog but, at least I update it like every month right?? Lola so, I promise you guys that i'll update about my exam like on every exam paper i've got so yea. So, well recently, I've gotten back my report book and I've kinda improve a little bit not so much so it's like a wake up call for me to study hard and I'm gonna prove to my parents and all my family members thetvtjeir effort to pray for and support me doesn't go to waste.. I'm gonna do my nest and show them what I got!! Haha. (: jiayou

so, prelims are left with one more paper to go on monday and its the end of prelims and beginning of o levels soon! (: cant wait to graduate! haha. grad night is at ARENA COUNTRY CLUB.. so fucking like SHIT!! i rather go back to the school plan. ass la! haha. so the class is like planning on a bbq to replace the class for grad night.. its fucking LAME!!! gosh!! haha so another story was about my FUCKING BROTHER!! shit man he!! walao!! think he so big uh?? walao!! some more 3 years younger than me! ASSHOLE!! sec 1 still want act big! fuck uh! who he think he is? chibai!! his fault then still want throw my shoe away! WAD THE F!!

so its officially 10 days before raya and i just took my preliminary science examinations.. well, i thought it would like be too difficult but well, its doable.. (: okay, dont'want to be too confident. haha. over confidence is very bad for the luck though there's no such thing as luck in my dictionary.. really i think luck is just some PURE COINCIDENCE. seriously. don't you think so. if you need luck to do well in you examinations, then well, you're not really that good at all and proves that you have not done a good job to study for your examinations. if you said that you really studied for the examinations, then why in the world do you need luck for?? see the difference. haha so, well, LUCK are for LOSERS!! L for L!(: so, jiayou people! do your best! (:

second week of ramadan already! time moves so fast and soon, im gonna be taking my prelim science practical exams, hari rays for 3 days, and finally, the real preliminary examinations. then not long after that, O levels!! gosh, looking h=at how time pass so fast, makes me feel pressure but the BIG question is, am i doing anything at all to overcome the pressure? im not so sure myself. been staying back for math everyday after school and well, not helping actually. seriously. hahha anyway, tuition isn't helping much also. really. sigh. wonder wad i must do. looking at mark feehily's face? gosh! he has a boyfriend! gosh, but its okay, he can be MY boyfriend in my dreams! haha. lols, anyway, no time to slack around that much coz in just 2 more months, i'll be sitting in the school hall tkaing my MAJOR EXAM!!!! gosh im just praying hard that i wont get a hard time studying. what more with the condition of the house. its too too noisy. really. feel like getting out and well, mym

well, im trying to convince that wadeva that's happening now is not going to last long because i know that everything that goes up, has to come down. wadeva conflict arises, has to set sooner or later. a problem arises after i left for studies and well im not going to let the matter loose after all me and her has brought up for at least a year. well, now we have no idea how to solve the stupid matter coz everybody has their own side of the story and we just dunno which is the lie and the truth. the conflict before both of us left was solved and we thought we could leave them in peace but wellm, obviously, we thought wrong. what have we done to make them be this way, the way we discipline them, they way we taught them, we way we coach them? what is it? im not just going to sit im my seat and listen to teachers talking and not care about them. they are part of me too. i have to do something to make them realise their mistakes. soo, all will be resolved and well and finally, we could

hey hey!! ok so today i cried alot in class all of the teachers are like pissing me off real bad la especially MRS KO PIT ENG!!! im gonna spell her name out loud for EVERYONE to know. gosh she really like to piss the fuck out of me! for goodness sake, get a fucking life uh wtf! okay so another was Mr ANik neogi!! stuppid shit he is the most lamest teacher ive ever met! want to joke, joke at the wrong timing wtf!! want me kill you uh?? chibai!! again, get a fucking life uh!! why are you even our form teacher? you dun even have the fucking attitude to be one la.. ur like so totally not doing ur fucking job!!! god!! shit i dun want talk or see your face anymore!! SHIT!! it just ruin my mood for the day!! shit! okay so tomorrow is the national day celebration in school, i'll be performing solo and well, all the SOLOIST!!! SEC 4s!!!! JIAYOU YOUR SOLOS!!!! wooits!!

ANNOUNCEMENT!!!! As of 0815 this morning, I, Suhaidah binte Nordin, class 4e7, declare that i officially hate KPE for insulting me in class when i seriously did nothing wrong!! i just stood up, told her the whole class had crafts after humanities remedial today and she only shot me!! WAD the bloody fuck is that suppose to mean??? is she out of her mind? she lost her fucking sanity? walao!! everything also me.. she thin i wad? im just cinveying wadeva the message is that wad passed to me from the whole class to you right? wad the bloody hell is wrong woth u? got screw loose uh in ur fucking head? walao!! ok, basically, im just gonna imagine that her voice is like mark feehily(westlife) and her whole fucking DISGUSTING appearance is like mark feehily and at the end of the lesson, mark will sing to me one of the westlife songs which will make my fucking day WAY WAY better!!! god!! WESTLIFE!!! i need u guys in singapore!! when will you guys come????? <3

well, its like 3 more months till my Os.. gotta chiong! just happen to get tuition and yea ive just started so im not sure whether it'll work or not. haha anyway, just when hópe ahas arrived, dt is making trouble for me by making me do things like journal work where i have absolutely nothing inside. gosh!! haha but wadeva it is, i hope my a math will improve.(: haha okokok that's what im hoping for so, wish me all the best!! (:

ok, is like two more days till school starts again and well, i havent completed my homeworks.. hahah.. well, planning to chiong all the way tmr but well, its obvious i cant finish all like duhh. haha anyways, at least i do ma. haha and i totally, gonna hate mrs ko more than ever now and probably forever.. gosh, i am so gonna get pissed off by her man!! and her me too!! its like so obvious la.. walao, i dun think she like bandsmen lo.. walao, everytime scold scold me only.. shit la!! i never do, she scold, i do, she also scold.. wad the fuck does shee want with me?? fuck her man! shit! well, concert is like finally over and though i made a few mistakes here and there during the show, i well, kinda glad that my solo is close to perfect! hhaha except for the last note, it appears wad i kinda want it to be heard to the audience. anyway, there's 2 more projects coming up; one is cdac concert and the other is the SHELL MOE Band Fiesta @ the Botanical Gardens.. (: gonna exchange my solo w

wooits!! OMG!! my voice! argh!! change liao.. now become so low and so cracky.. aiyo!! how to shout?! grrrr.. drink more water.. band camp just finished today.. tomorrow, im gonna sleep the WHOLE DAY man!! haha.. well, not literally the WHOLE DAY la but well, im just gonna stay home and rest, rest and rest!! so, gonna strat resting now.. CONCERT IN 4 MORE DAYS!! JIAYOU EVERYBODY!!! (:

val eating cookies. its 711 me and rachael im looking at something somebody's doing while horse extra there. haha me taking picture of wen jie and xin yi looking at xin yi doing something hmmm.. zameer..... L-R : fauzi and xin yi oiling the trumpet valve top L-R: zameer and rachael bottom L-R: me and Isa! zameer and fuad picking on nabilah alumni from yuhua nabilah, zameer and me! isa, si ying, jillian and rachael RVs! alumni trumpet section and isa! alumni trumpet section, Isa and Latiff alumni trumpet section !!

today, 6th june at River Valley High School Fantasia 8 presenting River Valley Concert Band (guest Band: SparsWinds)

gosh... feels like an idiot waiting for someone to talk to you when well, they haven't talked to you for a few weeks and even if we meet every single week, we dun really look into each others' eyes like we used to. we walked past each other like we were strangers. haix. im not even sure whether is it that u are angry with me or well, just dun seem to bother me any longer. tsk. i feel crap. lots of things that need to be done by 5th june wasn't done yet. givne an extension till 7th june and till now, i haven't done yet. luck its only midnight. haha. i dun think i will be sleeping the whole day and tmr still need wake up early and go find xy to discuss the hting that needs to be done today. gosh. i feel like exploding. my mind is all haywired. i think that if its noe for today, i would be crying all alone inside my room being depressed for the first time. haha. well, i dun wish to be like that. im just gonna hide everything thats dark and saddening inside of me way deep a

am i that bad of a student that u must have to insult me behind my back? am i that pathetic? when i did wad u told me to, u didn't even give me a simple compliment. even when MK who always sleeps in your class, did ur work, u will give her a compliment. do you hate us that much? what have we done to make u hate us? basically, its just an incident that we even apologized to you that well, might have made you hate us but for goodness sake, we said sorry to the school okay. i mean, im a bandsmen i know. u should know that we have lots of things that we have to do this year. please la. i know ur last year batch could do what my class now can't do that is because we are slower learners than them u should pretty well understand that. i know u are a great teacher but still, u should understand us better, understand me better. i have a lot to carry on my shoulders now and bit by bit, its gonna get lesser and finally, all will be off, after 25th july. i presume im gonna have sufficient

wooits~! today was MT 'O' LEVEL EXAMINATIONS... okay, well, not that super difficult but well, i was nervous in the hall that i sweated a bit.. haha. so, after exams was band and then at 5, some of us playing for alumni went to RV for rehearsals. the auditorium was super DRY!!! there aren't any echoes at all!! playing in the theatre was really tiring man! hah.. really really.. ha. then after that went to eat supper and went on home.. tmr still got school. ah, sian!!

ok today was hilarious at the second part of school. haha. self sect today and half way through, we talked about aids coz the sec 3s and 4n/t went for assembly the whole day and talked about sex. the sec3s in the section started the topic first and well, since i had biology class today, i told them i got some info on aids. and we looked through my textbook and went up to the female reproductive system page and talked about the parts. it was hilarious and we laughed all the way. females have three holes down at our parts anus, vagina and urinary bladder. then denise was like "eh, can fuck in the bladder uh?" then i was like "no.. haha." then she went bladder fuck.. and the whole section laughed. haha. if anyone ever heard of it, please tell me.. haha. never heard of ppl fucking the urinanry bladder. haha. wonder if its as painful as any other hole. haha. okay, enough dirty thinking. hah. well, 4 more practices till RV concert. and 6 more practices till 18th june conc

okay so, just got my "terrific" results 3 hours ago.. and well, as expected, failed Amath. haha. well, still got O level, so, jiayou! heh. had a class photoshoot just now and gonna have the band photoshoot later at 4.50pm. OMG!! think its gonna be super hot later since its raining just now. just received a whole new timetable with literally, no lessons for 2 weeks, starting from today except for the MT intesive programme that's gonna last for two hours everyday starting this friday. crap. i think im gonna sleep in class. haha. okok, so, took the class photoshoot b4 recess and during recess, XY dirtied her uniform and changed with me. seriously, the stain is super duper obvious.. hahs. her shirt is like super damn big la. WTH. haha. well, now i just saw an Adidas bag which is like FREAKING nice la . SHIT but its like super ex. wadeva. so, probably, later during band, we're gonna side-read a new piece which i looked for it till i sweated like a pig in the steel drum roo

fucking morning of the day. that fucking teacher scolded me just because i didn't do a fucking homework that was meant for yesterday which i gotten it just this fucking morning! What the fucking hell la. she fucking think wad? my hand and brain super fucking fast uh? fuck you la! i just got it after your fucking lesson and i just got 30 fucking minutes to complete 11 fucking questions? what do you fucking expect you asshole! at least i completed 5 fucking question right. i only didn't do your fucking question you did yesterday. wad the fuck are you thinking? and now she is giving more fucking worksheets. what the fuck! fucking fag!!! FUCK IT MAN!!

yo! went to band today and its like whoa...... section dunno how to read a grade 3 rhythm. so sick! WTH.. ok nvm dun wanna talk about unhappy times that'll spoil my mood so.... on the bright side, i've done my prototype and happy happy. hahah. okok, so im dine with ideation and development so wads left will be the research i'm missing out on and a few others to touch up on my dear journal... so, MYE coming!! JIAYOUs ppl ! make your teachers proud and prove them wrong upside down! hahaha

so hell has broke lose ever since i failed my SS mock. gosh. haha. ok so, i need to stay back for ss "remedial" cozi failed my ss every friday. i know its kinda nonsense but wadeva. well, nothing much happened this pass few days dats why this page is so dead. haha, well, ppl has been telling things that well, sort of concerns me so well, yea. and its always the same person that tells me things but regarding different person but also of the same topic. its kinda messy in words but yea wadeva. haha. 'Burned' is coming out soon this month and me, and rab just can't wait. we're like waiting impatiently for it. haha. so well, rab bought this book, its written by the same author and its the same theme. so well, i thought it was well, kinda of a cool book so i decide to buy it. well, not now but together when 'Burned' arrived, along with another book, 'The Fallen Angel' diff author but same genre. rab and i do have a similar taste in books haha.. its

okay, so its the last day of the month and tmr is april fools day and the class will go wild. haha kk. so tmr, thrs no math at all so HAPPY HAPPY!!!! hahaha skali its april fool's day by the teachers. an advanced one. haha. heard tmr is gonna be a humanities remedial so yea HAPPY HAPPY! haha wadeva umm, well, lots of things has been going on in my life.. well, thrs mock exam on the 29th and the 30th of march. a math will be nxt week. okok, thought i was gonna fail my e math super badly bt i got a b3 for it.. which is fair enough for me la. so, nxt tym, must do better. im gonna fail my ss for sure coz i duno wth the sbq is talking about. i think half the class is gonna fail haha. well, wad to do? the past is the past. haha. okok, uh, i think if i nvr fail my phy, i will get a jus pass coz i forgot to take my calculator to my table! ARGHHH!!! haha. so dumb of me haha. okok, my eng i think can make it... and my bio i think will cnfrm pass without fail!! haha. so overall, im jus confid

yoyoyo okay, tmr is speech day and well, JIAYOUS bandsmen! den sat, got band haix, so tired bt nvm. then after dat got alumni. Xin Yi is tagging along! YAY! haha okay, im super happy xin yi is going to alumni so yea. val is going to so yea. happy happy. haha okay then denise is also going to alumni too so yea! happy happy happy. and as usual, nab go alumni, so happy 4x. haha.. bt isa nt playing. and nab and i was like! WAD?! u cancel ur trip la. den go alumni with us. no isa no fun sia haha. remembered the tym esplanade cncrt, dat ty mwe were having break and nab was sleeping and we were like having fun taking pics of us wif her sleeping! haha its on facebook anyway so u guys can CIO! haha. okok. so tmr is speech day and its sec 2 first tym. im nt worried bout atikah and aleen bt the aishwarya is making my stomach hurt. everytym i think of her making mistakes = nabilah getting angry. haix. she wun stop making trouble sia. OMG!. nvm i make sure she come on saturday. if nt, she really go

okay, im having my first diarrhoea of my life. gosh, im feelin so weak all over i took more than a minute to get to the kitchen from the living room. im suppose to go to my friend's hse today to prac my trumpet playing bt bcoz of the diarrhoea, i cnt go out. sigh. it's so boring and i cnt believe im doin hmwk right now. i tot im having fever bcoz of the weakly feeling im haven bt its not. this feeling sucks man. i cnt even type properly. im making loads of typo errors.. okay, ive written this much in 3 minutes? cnt believe im taking such a long tym to blog. oh gosh, my stomach is acting up again. gosh. its excruciating! argh! okay, now a killer headache is acting up. i better stop blogging for now see ya!

today is sports' day and we all hav to go to clementi stadium.. it's freaking hot today and without the shelter, we could all get a heat stroke. haix. even when the teachers knw that the weather is god damn hot, they still tell us to sit under the freaking sun. and we sat there for like wad it seems to be half and hour so our skins are like burning by then. shit man! now, when i took off my shoes, the colour contrast is super freaking obvious lor. wth. man, u guys hav to work on ur common sense. and thrs this freaking guy who totally is within the group bt so totally not invited at all. others can do it and we cant? wth? crap sia dis guy. haix. he is totally getting on my last damn nerves. i dun think dat he can do wad his doing nw. if he continues to do it, everybody under him is gonna get affected badly and i think the whole group of us agrees with it totally! he is so immature. well, not say immature bt he doesn't clique in. well, wadeva it is, i totally hated today. it

okay so today i'm totally frustrated with anything that ticks me off. i'm telling ya, today, is really not a nice day for me and if tomorrow is still the same, i'm gonna blow my top off if anything pisses me off bad. during these hours, i'm totally in a bad mood and it's not PMS coz i just finished it yesterday. so yea. now, i really know how nabilah feels like being a section leader.. haix. luckily, i'm not an ASL. if i am, i would totally stress myself out and blow up anytime during band practices.. haix. anyway, my post is geting long so yea. my face is looking pale now.

hello.. okay today was a friend's birthday and we made a bash for him.. the place was full of flour and obviously, we cleaned it up.. duhh..so well, we bought a 20 dollars cake and bryan paid for it first so we will pay him later on la.. okay so it was a cheese cake and i picked it.. well, after we sang for him a birthday song, brandon kang smash a handful of flour on to his face. basically, we had fun but danial wasn't there and linda, patsy, hakim, alim, zaki and wira replaced.. haha.. 1 person kana replaced 6 person.. haha. so well, after that we went home lyk duhh.. haha.. so here's a birthday wish to that friend!!! HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY DICKY!!!!

so just now after band me, debbie, xin yi and su qin went KFC.. alll of us ate the ultimate value box so yea.. and then, after eating left out drinks to finish... so we chat chat for a while.. then joke joke..xin yi super sway sia.. everytym she drink water, we everytym make her laugh one.. haha.. then she went to the sink alot of tym sia just to throw out the water... haha.. we laugh until our stomach ache like hell sia.. xin yi almost cries because of laughing so hard.. haha.. then we left for home... so yea, even though it's like only 2 hours, it;s like we joke for 20 hours sia...i noe it's kinda impossible but well, it kinda felt like that..haha

okay, so today had amath remedial and physics.. physics went first and a math was next.. so yea.. both was alright.. :) so well, after a math, syazwan , hakim and i were the last to leave class and well, we cracked!! haha so here's how it goes: me: so, u know what to do already? hakim: yea.. sort of.. me:what? hakim:it's a thing for cameras.. u? me:earring stuff.. like a holder.. hakim:holder? for 4 years we did holder sia.. so tired of it.. haha.. but mine it's like some sort of holder also la.. syazwan:eh eh!! i show you guys what i do.. see my coursework.. so this part we were looking at syazwan sticking his head in his bag...haha. hen we continue talking.. me:what u making? hakim: the thing to put the lens thing.. me:ouh... syazwan:i'm like talking to myself sia so me and hakim weren't listening at all because it's super soft!! we can't hear at all.. hakim:then your... syazwan: i know you guys DnT la.. no need ignore me like that right? so what i doing

okay so it's towards the end of the first week of school and the start of my preparations of O level this year and well, let's just say i'm not starting on the right tune.. this few weeks i've been totally super fucking tired and yea..especially today.. i woke up freaking late sia.. well, not exactly late for band coz i was running to school.. and i nid to be in school for solid 13 hours.. continuous with alumni band.. haix.. super tired sia.. i dun exactly noe wads the cause.. my class teachers this year are such a bore and might sleep in them.. haix.. well, managed to remain in a math class... well, half of the class got it so okay la.. well, i'm gonna sleep early today coz tmr, i again nid to wake up early and reach school at 0730.. haix.. got alumni concert dat starts at 3pm so yea.. anybody wanna come, i repeat.. SPARKSWINDS GO POP.. ESPLANADE CONCERT HALL 3PM.. 1 HOUR